Everyday for 15 months after EJ was born I’d use my lunch break to go nurse her at the daycare. I’d often sneak out the back door at work and make a mad dash. I’d strategically schedule off site meetings so that people wouldn’t notice as much if I was gone so I could nurse her every day.
Every day. On this red velvet couch in the daycare’s kitchen/break room.
That, along with cosleeping were the two things I did to make sure that despite going back to work full time and taking a full time grad school course load we kept nursing.
I didn’t really mind- lunch break nursing and all night nursing were the only “just us” time we had. It helped me meet my breastfeeding goals. It was sacred time of just me and her- and I’ll never regret things I put aside or on hold to make sure I was able to meet her at the daycare. Every. Single. Day.
The eye rolls.
The “how long are you gonna do that?”
The “she doesn’t really need it…”
The “you have to pump again.?!?”
The “good luck with that- I tried it, it’s not possible…”
I’ve always had a streak of defiance- so thanks for making sure I proved you wrong.
She was about 4 months old here. I had just started back to work a few weeks prior. My classes had just started up again.
👇 This girl here didn’t know how long it was gonna last. I was making it up as I went along. Wanting to do it, Though not sure how or if I could. Would the baby ever sleep through the night? Will I still be able to pump enough to send to the daycare every day? Will she remember I’m her mom? I literally see the insecurity on my own face.
All this to say- 4 years later. What I know now. All the moms I’ve met.
I’ve never met a single mom who said, “You know- I really feel like I nursed my baby too long…I should have quit sooner…”. Whether they breastfed for 2 weeks, 2 months, 2 years or more- I’ve never met a mom who regretted the journey or their efforts and sacrifices.
So keep on keeping on to whatever your goal is momma. ❤️. It’s your journey, not theirs. You’ll remember those precious moments forever. (And take a picture!)
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👏👏👏❤️❤️❤️ Amazing job, mama. You are so devoted to your kid. I would have done the same thing if I’d gone back to full time work earlier, and I’m already thinking about doing this if I have a second baby now that I will be in work full time. And I have the ridiculous privilege of 12 month maternity leave here in Canada. I’d STILL do what you did when starting a 12 month old at daycare. I just have a million kudos for you. You knew what was important to you and you made it happen no matter how hard it must have sometimes been.